Chu

Ah haven’t posted on here in awhile.

Honestly though, I need a place to say this. So that no one important will read it.. so here goes..

Hi, not only do I love you… but I’m in love with you.. And you say you love me… but you don’t know what you want. This is killing me. Why can’t you just shut the fuck up and accept what makes you happy. Instead of being ass backwards and pushing away your own happyness.. I would love you every day.. Without question.. But I guess that’s not what you want. And I’m sorry I’m just a lame unable to sway your mind. So here I am, back to wishing every day that every someone would just.. love me. I guess that’s too much to ask for though.. considering if I had nothing else but love I’d be happy.

Thanks life.. you’ve really dealt me the greatest hands in life.. I can only wonder what’s next..

Boy meets Girl, the end.

It really sucks having life repeat itself over and over again. Always the same story cut off before it could even start. Boy meets girl, the end. Nothing to progress. I meet someone, they’re always with someone. This time, I can honestly say there’s not a single person in the world like this person. I’ve never meet someone whom my personality immediately meshes together with completely. And she’s with someone. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining.. at least not trying to. I’m more so expressing my thoughts to anyone willing to read. I’m not hating being a close friend with her either, I enjoy at least the friendship I’m allowed to have with her. I only wish things would play out in my favour for once. But if not I’ll just continue on with life normally. But I hope to make something of the now situation. At this point all I can do is keep doin what I’m doin.. and strengthen the friendship. Hope.. Oh how I hate hope.. But it’s all I got now.

I have no space
No room to move around
And this box is getting smaller
I’m trying to get out

…How did I get so far
From where I was
When did I decide
To lose my way
Who have I become

I’ve got a new low
All 52 cards in a row
I see now that I won’t let go
No I won’t let go

Well who am I?
A cold shoulder left to cry
You feel bow-wow so do I
Yeah so do I

I’ve been right; I’ve been left
I’ve been wrong; I’ve been left behind
I’ve been up but mostly down

I’ve been right; I’ve been left
I’ve been wrong; I’ve been left behind
I’ve been up but mostly down

I can not help feeling like
I have so much at steak
So I lock myself inside my head
And I just run in place

So many directions I don’t
Know which way to go
I’m so busy doing nothing
I got nothing to show

I’ve got a new low
All 52 cards in a row
I see now that I won’t let go
No I won’t let go

Well who am I?
A cold shoulder used to cry
You feel bow-wow so do I
Yeah so do I

I’ve been right; I’ve been left
I’ve been wrong; I’ve been left behind
I’ve been up but mostly down

I’ve been right; I’ve been left
I’ve been wrong; I’ve been left behind
I’ve been up but mostly down

I make mistakes
Just like everybody else
But instead I’m letting go of it
I can’t forgive myself

Well I did my time
In the window of this box
Like it or not
All I got now is today
Tomorrow aint here
And yesterday is gone dead on me anyway

I’ve been right; I’ve been left
I’ve been wrong; I’ve been left behind
I’ve been up but mostly down

I’ve been right; I’ve been left
I’ve been wrong; I’ve been left behind
I’ve been up but mostly down